Thoughts...

I decided that I need to write more on my blog-- thoughts, feelings, etc. I'm not an amazing writer and despite the fact that I never have a hard time finding something to say, I do have a hard time writing anything of length. It's been a tough past few days. Everything with graduate school is exploding in my face. My thesis advisor moved to TX and my new committee is not supporting some aspects of the research we did. I went up to ISU for a meeting on Friday and was totally attacked. I cried the whole way home, but made a resolution to myself that I could overcome this and with the help of my old thesis advisor could prove these people wrong. Well, today my new advisor wrote me suggesting that I turn my thesis into a project. It would be the easy way out, but makes me feel like a total failure and all the research and hard work I did would be in vain. It makes me want to throw-up. I just feel so abused!! I thought educators were supposed to help students-- I guess I was spoiled at Ricks and BYU!! This makes me want to teach even more. Maybe that's why I need to go through this, so I will be a more understanding teacher and be an advocate for the student and not the "rule book." Despite all of this I am so blessed-- I really do think I have the cutest kids in the world!! Here is a recent picture of Claire. She was 5 weeks yesterday!!